Ch-ch-changes

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Changes are scary.

Being in my late 20s now (OMG), I’ve very much realized that changes happen and yes, they are scary. Positive or negative changes can be scary because no matter what, it changes your routine. I remember when I graduated high school, I was scared of the changes coming for me and my friends. I knew I would no longer see them everyday and that I would have to start working, and it truly terrified me.

When I was 23, I started going to therapy, which was such a massive change for me that I almost didn’t keep going. First of all, I was in group therapy. I hated it and it wasn’t working. I ended up staying in the program for 7 months, because I got used to going and I was scared of not going.

Last year when I started college, it was truly terrifying, but I was so pumped I don’t think I showed my fear. I started college because I did want change. I needed a change in my life that was positive, because up to the day I started, the last few years had been pretty crappy.

I felt like I would never be anybody just because of what people told me. I thought I could never go to college because of what the bullies told me and because of my grades in school. They weren’t horrible, but they weren’t “college material” grades. I stunk in school because I hated it so much.

I needed a change in my life, more so for my happiness. I was tired of going through each day feeling worthless because I wasn’t doing anything with my life. It was literally going nowhere.

I want to point out that if you are not open to change in your routine, that’s okay. I, personally, needed something to change.

The other day I wrote on Facebook that now that I had transportation again, I wanted to take advantage of it and go somewhere with my dog. People encouraged me to go for it because it’s a vacation not only physically, but also mentally. I wrote that I needed a change in routine because I am living a life that is not being lived. I feel like I need to travel more, and see more of the world, even the state to begin with.

Changes can be a great thing; we just have to open our mind and heart to them. Always consider your blessings. God wouldn’t put you through a change that He hasn’t planned specifically for you.

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2 thoughts on “Ch-ch-changes

  1. I’ve never liked changes, either. Changes in routine were the worst because it was hard for me to stick with it. I’m also scared about the move that’s happening soon. I’ve never owned a house before, but Jamie seems confident, which helps me push the worry aside.

    Keep writing! Your stuff is easy to relate to.

    -Lenzi (BDR)

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    • Certain types of changes are the ones it’s hard to stick with, for me. Diets being one of them (since it’s relevant these days). I’m going on week 3 of being on this diet. The longest I ever stuck with a diet was about 3 or 4 days. It’s okay to be scared. That’s a big change! But you’re blessed to have Jamie with you in this journey.

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